Friday, October 23, 2009

Annabel



You can define generosity as nobility of mind, willingness to give or share; unselfishness. I think when spoken of, generally people think in monetary terms. I have enough money to get the things I need and most of the things I want, and for that I count myself as fortunate, but also credit the fact I work hard. I don’t need people to buy me things, and I have always felt uncomfortable with it. I have just become comfortable with accepting gifts, solely because as I’ve learnt to look at it as an excuse to give them back. I like giving gifts, something somebody will love and will mean something, or something random and silly just to evoke a smile. It is the things money can’t buy that keep me seign, that I want from you, and that I appreciate in people, because I know the best things money can‘t buy. I appreciate generosity in terms of somebody giving somebody else the time of day, when perhaps they don’t even know them. It’s about taking a chance on a person and being open. Giving them the oppertunity to earn your trust. Taking a leap. It is their generosity gives me faith.

The bible reads 'Do unto others as you would have others do unto you'. While i am not religious i agree fully and think the world would be a better place if this was considered. In theory it is so simple and surely the easiest thing to follow. But I don’t think everybody is capable of this. There are too many people shitting on other people. And I just don’t know what makes them think that they have the right. In my life experience, all 23 years of it, it is those who are actually nobody striving to be somebody that think they are better than everybody else and are the worst kind of people.

I am blessed with many friends, those who I love are amazing people, people I respect for that reason, and aren‘t necessarily those who I am closest to but indeed they are those that I think highly of. I have friends everywhere. I network as I have an interest in people, cultures and lifestyles, i suppose it is paired with my travel bug. It’s not in a grotesque fake sort of way; for any advancement, that idea kills me, but I will admit that sometimes I tolerate some people and have no idea why. I do take chances, I figure i have nothing to lose and a lot to gain and I’m happy to say that sometimes people take a chance on me. I have friends who are deemed as celebrity’s who are more human than people I know who are nothing but think they are everything. Now surely these who are targeted and criticised, who have more reason to not take chances, and not to trust; after all they are exceptional people, not that they will admit it and that is the key. They don't get caught up in the bullshit of life. And I find them some of the most open and generous and loyal people I have ever known. Perhaps I have just got the very best of the bunch, but in any case I am grateful because they are my bunch.

For these reasoning’s, for these types, for these personality disorder, I regret that I always think more of the one and less of the other. I will let some close and keep others at a distance. Not that they probably care, or appreciate that fact or my opinion. But I think the fact I recognise the differences and indeed care about them is a good thing, for me and the people I care about. You should take a chance on somebody and be sincere, you will be rewarded.